13/11/2016

Hahah it has been a decade since the last post. I know you aren't going to read my blog anymore but now I'm laying on the sofa without a sense of guilty. 3 days more to my Sem 1 exam.

Well done tho! I just finished revising with my friend who tryna explain the best to me, he's damn nice COZ I can't find anyone like him anymore who can explain patiently to me. Which I appreciate his effort so much. I met so many good people in this year. It really melts my heart COZ without them I'm nothing. They tried their best to give me what they could, to teach me, to bless me, even some of them who treat me not that friendly, but I still love them as it is such a valuable learning process. I used to thought how life would it be for someone who got disliked by friends throughout their live. It is indeed a painful memories, I can truly understand and get that. 

For those who are reading this, what I wanna tell you is, you're wonderful, perfect than nobody. Life is yours. Just live boldly. Have a nice day 

2 / 7 / 2016

Hi there, in case you will still log into my blog, I owe you a lotsa posts. hahah
I'm doing very well in form 6 and I do feel so happy right now.

Sincerely, hanpei.

9 / 3 / 2016

It is indeed so struggling and confusing of what I'm gonna choose for my future.
Everyone of us are catching the dreams. Trying to embark on our lives with so wonderful things.
I love music, i love orchestra. But I do love this planet as well. I wanna protect it.
They told me, you can be part time teaching violin or take part in any orchestras while you can be a vet.
Vice versa, you can still protecting the planet in other way if you are a violin teacher.
Perhaps i dont need guidance anymore. But I need to passion in doing something. Which will come first?
I dont have much time anymore. I have to choose it already.
Oh my days, I need something to determine my decision. VET OR MUSIC
That's definitely are different choices of path. And also such a big different gap between it.
WHAT SHOULD I CHOOSE?

1 / 3 / 2015

Well, is my birthday month. For the first of the month, I would like to express how fast time is.
I was like doing nothing at all in these 3 months and I do feel so regret. hahhhahahha
If you ask me what's my opinion about myself, one word, BITCH.
I am like getting bitchy and bitchy and bitchy. Can't be controlled huh!!
From now on, just call me bitchy. argh

16 / 2 / 2016

Hoo It has been such a long long time. Reminding myself to have a timetable so that I can work more efficiently. LOL my super holiday is gonna finish soon. Duh
Yesterday I was looking for the old songs that I kept replaying and and I loved in the old days.
Guess what, I have lots of feelings roaring inside my heart which were can't be explained.
When you have lost the motivation that made you today, you may return to the starting point and set your goal again.
Life is difficult, people are complicated. But songs make you a better person. Trust me.
Recall why it had made you fell in love so hard. When you try to figure it out today, it will give you another impact and surprise.
Songs that made you happy or sad, of course there were stories behind it isn't it? The stories that you wouldn't want anyone knows or it might hurt you so hard once.
You're fulled with passionate, love, dream, hope. Don't lose the one you want to be the most.
When you feel tired, trying to find the one you have accidentally lost it when you are too busy with catching up the speed of this realistic and materialistic world.
I love and strongly agree with what Eva hing had said before, you're beautiful. don't let anyone tells you otherwise.
Once, sorry to tell you, life isn't that easy that it will not give you what you want, it only gives for those who are deserved for, but love.

15 / 1 / 2016

Loving someone in certain ages is totally like different experiences. It defines our lives and fills it with such a wonderful memories in our lives.
It isn't just a person that you have admired for, but it represents that during the ages you love that person and the moments how he touches your heart.
I have to admit it the sweetest memories in my life ( until age 18 ) that I've been through, John gave me the most unforgettable experiences. When I think about him, I miss the time when we were in form 4 5, the time when we were studying so hard to achieve the same goal, better result. ya?
The time when we waiting at the bus station, sleeping in the bus, enjoying the gentle wind, the rainy cold day and eventually the most excited part was to meet him. The guy which perfectly fitted with what I was looking for. Like I was really crazy in love with his charming look, his characters, his cute dimples, big eyes and all sorts of that.
What did he really touch my heart was the way he replied my text, the way he smiled and he laughed.
It has been awhile, despite missing you in a sudden moment, I must have let you go in a way I prefer.
You have to live in a better way than you thought. Because I have let you go and nobody will come and bother two of you anymore. UHM. How about me, moving forward.
We must live with a way that we prefer the most. Because it is too hard to live in such a realistic world. We deserve more than we thought and if yours is not coming, be patient because the wonderful one is yet to come. I give you all my lucks, my dear friends.

3 / 1 / 2016

Sorry for didn't write a long review of 2015 because I wasn't at my hometown. Anyway, is a brand new year!
Thing that I don't want it to happen the most it happens eventually. Urgh. After enjoying so much of delicious, finger-licking-good,mouth-watering food, I gain a lot of weight, it doesn't matter anyway, the most important is the love handle is coming back to haunt me. Gosh.
Feel like wanna go back to school, wear the ugly uniform, meet lots of $#%^&^ teachers, wasting time in school assembly and lots of stupid, crazy and sweet memories. Ahh feel so nostalgic.
Well, despite knowing it wouldn't repeat what I want anymore, I still fell into a moment of silence and sad.
Life is about keep on moving right, a new year, but it's just the same.
No planning, wasting time, can't leave my mama and home. This is so me.
Maybe staying in house will be the best option for me, IDK. But I do wanna stick with my mom forever, this is what I'm always desiring for. C'mon.
The more second I spend with my mom, the more happiness I get.
Getting fatter and fatter does really upset me A LOT. Looking at others waist, boobs, thigh. Aww. How if I have a slim body? LOL
So, in case you guys think like I might waste my time doing nothing in house. These are some of my plans and no doubt, I'll only holding it for maybe days? hahaha

• STUDY
• READ
• LEARN SOMETHING NEW
• WORKOUT
• EXERCISE
• LOVE MAMA

Happy new year guys! I love you'all.