25/2/2019

It's coming to the end of February. It's not only the beginning of 2019 anymore.

Still procrastinating all the time which makes myself even guilty and insecure.

Spending most of my time with Daniel makes me the most blessed person in the world. Even with all the flaws he has, so do I. Most of the time I'll still question myself whether does he worth enough. 

After all these while, I still love him more and more.

He is always that person who tolerates with all my ridiculous in our relationship.

I miss him right now, despite the distance isn't that far, how much I wish I can share with his burden and we can be carefree to enjoy our life.

Chicken, if you're reading this. Just to let you know I am being annoying, insecure, cute and grumpy all the time, but I love you. xoxo

Everything is gonna be better.

Valentine's Day

It was the first time I truly knew what does Valentine's Day mean for. But, we did not really have a good day tho.
I was hoping to receive flowers from chicken and expecting he would plan the V-day early. But seemed like he didn't have any ideas. So I kept waiting and asked him when we were heading to the national museum.
I asked him: Do you prepare any flowers? ( As I had already given him so many hints that I wanted a bouquet of flowers, no matter it is any big day)
He replied: No, it's not worthy. The flowers will die in few days.
Just because of his words, it ruined my whole afternoon as this was exactly same like what I've expected. So I was thinking, I've been with you through all your big ups and downs yet I don't deserve a bouquet of flowers. This mindset has been stick still in my heart for the whole afternoon. I was really feeling hopeless to this guy, I was thinking.
So, on our way from national museum to butterfly farm, I couldn't help thinking all these while, the sacrifices I've put, and those efforts, yet he didn't wanna give me the flower. HAHAH
So, I didn't say anything, refused to hold his hand, as a silent protest. He stopped a few times to check on me whether I was too tired, why was I behaving so weird. I said nothing.
Then, I asked him: Don't you feel sorry to me? Been with you almost one year and during this big day I am only requesting for flower and you said it's not worthy.
Situation remained until we went to Pavilion mall, and he bought me the Mac lipstick that I've been longing for, and dragged me to the cinema asked me to choose one, but since I'm not into any of it, we left. He patiently talked to me that actually he had planned all of it, but because based on the timeline of Valentine's Day, flowers should be given during dinner. When we had our dinner, he used the excuse going to washroom to poopoo, but I knew it. Finally, a bouquet of flowers was finally reach.
3 roses, he said: it means I love you. With beige rose: charm, thoughtfulness, perfection, white rose: innocent, purity and youthfulness, pink rose: elegance, grace and sweetness.

Before sleep time, we ended our Valentine's Day with the rosè wine. Sweet night.

Love you baby. xoxo