Day 12

I'm here in KL for 12 days, almost 2 weeks, progressively good for now.
Were being too emotional last few days until I felt my world was gonna tumbling down without chicken.
After I spoke to chicken and friends all over Malaysia, I knew I gotta fix this problem ASAP or else it would be meaningless for me to stay here and study since I couldn't concentrate at all.
I started to think and think why was I being so offensive to everything in school and I started to list down things I gotta do everyday and try to complete it.
Every task I wanted myself to complete in the day would be marked with a tick if I'm able to do it.
The other thing would be, I will focus more on my studies rather than on chicken even I still miss him so badly right now.
It actually works! I don't know why, but I keep reminding myself and take soloist and composers as someone I should learn from.
To be precise this is the only third day I'm being more to myself, more happy and enjoy what I'm currently doing.
But, I still miss chicken very much. Reread all the old messages and pictures is my daily routine when I'm free. Those old good times were too good, to be able to see each other everyday, hold hands, cuddling in the sofa with good movies and even with the simplest dinner we could have were amazing when I was in Penang.
Once my senior told me, those 9 working months before you enter university will be the best memory you can ever have in your life. And I totally agree with that.
It is ain't easy at all to have long distance relationship. But distance makes our relationship even stronger and closer. Physical distance ain't a thing as long as our heart isn't far apart.

I know you have been busy with your work all these while, I love you baby.
God bless you.

Love, xoxo

Day 4

Good morning peeps! Preparing to attend my class later which is only half an hour *facepalm
I miss my vocal teacher so much and I think of him everyday most probably. It was such a wonderful moment for me whenever I was with him. And singing is such a happy thingy.
Feeling so blessed as I'm surrounded by people with so much of loveeeee and good songsssss.
It's going to be a great day.

xoxo

Day 2

 Having my class today and I was so regret for coming back on this week, because that lecturer talked nonsense and released us in an hour.

If I weren't coming back on this week, I can spend more time with mama and chicken. *cry

But since I come back, aiyah no choice lah.

Were so moody just now until chicken called me about his stuffs. How much I wish he were here when I need him the most. But I know this is the time for me to grow up.

Anyhow I'm super excited for his coming. And I'm feeling so guilty because everyone is worried about my nuisance homesick. 

I'm sorry world. I don't mean that, is just you're my closest person and I am a little bit selfish to spread my negativity for you.

But, remember, I love you guys.

BTW, I went for exercising this morning in order to distract myself. And my muscle is super painful right now.

GOODNIGHT, xoxo

Day 1

Forget about the horrible mhs week, tomorrow will be the first day of class, the first day of my uni life.
As we had 4 days to go back to hometown, it made me even harder to come back here, the new place, everything is just new.
When I went to Taiping to start my form 6 life, I thought I had already mentally prepared that I could be able not to rely on anyone else. Same thought happened when I went to Penang to work.
But that were with the accompaniment of my two lovely friends.
I was wrong. I thought I could be independent enough to handle myself until I knew I left my heart on chicken there. I can't concentrate at all and keep wanting to go back, go back to his side.
But I know we gotta grow together. I know I gotta be strong. I know everything! Is just I'm not that strong at this moment.
Sorry for spreading the negativity to you guys. I love you. And I need to borrow some strength from you.

PS: I love you chicken

1/9/2018

Last afternoon before I have my uni orientation, sitting on the bed, near to the window which I can see those high buildings in KL.
I'm grateful because mom is coming with me, dad wanted to. But too bad there was no space for him anymore.
Poh Ai is going to Terengganu now, which takes almost 8-9 hours. Still remember that day when we trio were saying goodbye to each other and a song related to friendship popped out. And I knew I would cry because that is me.
And I told Soo Yong, I will look up to the sky whenever I miss two of you. It sounds a bit too over hahah but I did mean that.
Because in the end you will have your own circle of friends, your own life and those old good days may be remained just as memory.

I miss my chicken tho. Goodnight world and I can't wait to enter my uni tomorrow.