Just came back from hometown with my sis and received mama text when I got to my hostel.
She texted me that she felt sad because she could not do the lemon juice for me as she wanted to do it for me this morning.
I spent one night at home on Friday and one night at chicken home on Sat and got back today.
It hurts me at the moment when I realised mama actually still loves me a lot as I thought I should be doing and managing all my things by my own when I came into university.
As she said, she is trying to let go, try not to care that much and enjoy her life, which I'm sincerely so happy for her.
But in fact she is not. She still loves me, cares about me so much and worries for me in every aspect.
Gonna spend a whole sweet week with her next week and I can't wait to go holiday with her despite I miss spending time with chicken too.
Can you ever imagine, how blessed life can be when everyone loves and treats you so good?
All these are so fake and dreamy for me. And what I can only do is take good care of myself and do what I'm supposed to do.
Sleep well, eat well, poo well, study well.
I love my life so much right now. And I'm writing this with so much of loveeee.
PS: Without my sis who is being here for me, my starting of uni life would be a big mess too.
LOVE YA.
2018年10月28日星期日
2018年10月10日星期三
DAY 32
Wow, it has been one month I'm here.
No worries, I'm doing good over here. And I loveeee the course so much.
Am very excited for the coming of chicken and I can't wait to do a lot of things and explore KL with him.
Last week my lecturer told us, LIFE ISN'T EASY AT ALL. You think those PHD can graduate so easily meh? If you are not going to work harder and harder, in the end you'll just be eliminated or kicked out from this competitive society.
And I felt so guilty for wasting most of my time doing nothing. One of my pandai things is, I'm quite good in pretending I'm hardworking, which is not.
And I know if I keep pretending doing many things but not, eventually my life is a nothing.
Not to mention my dreams, my goals and my integrity.
I'm not good at all, but I'm willing to learn. I learn and practise everyday, allowing myself to be lazy at some time but I will keep motivating myself because if I'm not gonna push myself, no one else.
I read a quote yesterday: Don't act like you're working hard, because the result will show everything.
And it is damn 7 true.
I don't take part in any activities yet, and most of the time I have my meals alone. And this gives me so much of space to think what I'm gonna do next. Self heal is the most powerful.
I live at my own pace, my own world, doing things I love, which is everyday I'm surrounded by music. Seeing all my course mates they are working hard too prevents me from being lazy too.
Not sure chicken is still reading my blog or not. Take good care of your body and I love you.
No worries, I'm doing good over here. And I loveeee the course so much.
Am very excited for the coming of chicken and I can't wait to do a lot of things and explore KL with him.
Last week my lecturer told us, LIFE ISN'T EASY AT ALL. You think those PHD can graduate so easily meh? If you are not going to work harder and harder, in the end you'll just be eliminated or kicked out from this competitive society.
And I felt so guilty for wasting most of my time doing nothing. One of my pandai things is, I'm quite good in pretending I'm hardworking, which is not.
And I know if I keep pretending doing many things but not, eventually my life is a nothing.
Not to mention my dreams, my goals and my integrity.
I'm not good at all, but I'm willing to learn. I learn and practise everyday, allowing myself to be lazy at some time but I will keep motivating myself because if I'm not gonna push myself, no one else.
I read a quote yesterday: Don't act like you're working hard, because the result will show everything.
And it is damn 7 true.
I don't take part in any activities yet, and most of the time I have my meals alone. And this gives me so much of space to think what I'm gonna do next. Self heal is the most powerful.
I live at my own pace, my own world, doing things I love, which is everyday I'm surrounded by music. Seeing all my course mates they are working hard too prevents me from being lazy too.
Not sure chicken is still reading my blog or not. Take good care of your body and I love you.