After one month, finally emotionally feel much better. The days were awful but I can feel the vibe and energy is coming back. I feel powerful and good again.
Recently Imma reading 'Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus', also recommended by him. I bought and started reading the day we parted. Thought it would be a great chance to learn more about different perspectives of opposite sex.
Still reading, but I seriously love the author so much, John Gray; a male author but being so so neutral about both sexes which I find it so impressive to have male to be so understanding and neutral to point out what we as women are thinking.
He pointed out so many perspectives which I didn't even realise as a woman. I learn about myself more, and be more open and acceptance to myself. Conclusion: This book is def worth your time and do some thinking. Long time didn't read good book. The last one I read was soooooooooo judgemental and nonsense.
This whole week I spent time with Phil winds in PJPAC, could never get tired watching their rehearsals.
My job was sitting in the control room and pressed slides. HAHA, I was very important.
I got goosebumps when Riverdance and Celtic Child were performed, the whole performance was truly amazing. Having the privilege to watch them rehearsed and as a crew was so new and fun to me.
My view (it was really fun!)
My recent update about April is: BUSY and STRESSFUL but having so so much FUN.
I filled my time with practice, lessons and work. Kinda toxic in a way to numb my feelings (which is impossible) so during these days I had quite bad breakdowns and heartache. The ache was so surreal and I could do nothing but just sat quietly with myself, felt the pain.
Was very decisive this time because I don't want to waste time and effort on something and someone which I know there's not gonna be a happy ending. Hurt, but the after-incident-thinking got me so much realisations. Good or bad? God knows.
Just received my Grad photos, I have tonnes of words which I would like to express to Saw Poh Ai.
So yeap, if you're reading this, I would like to say:
I LOVE YOU x1000000 for always being there for me when I need you the most. My happy, healing pill. We have seen each others' rises and falls (my falls probably the most HAHA) and still love each other without pretending to be someone. I remember the day when we were checking our offer letter from UPU, I got into UM and you were accepted by UMT, I know how bad it felt like because that wasn't your first choice, but you still nailed it and got into UM as a Phd student which I am super super proud of your achievement. We often study in UM library, because I want to see how suffering you are as a Phd student so it keeps me going HAHA, and your perseverance is one of my inspirations for not giving up what I truly love.
下一次的毕业照，将会是你，穿着很丑的圆圆皱皱的帽子 留着热血的眼泪 很光荣的走向 DTC 大礼堂，下一次 我陪你毕业 🎓。
