I guess 27/2/2021 was a special day. I went Sunway Pyramid with my housemate; as lucky as always I find a spot just right in front of the entrance. Then we went to buy milk tea and there was a machine like Bobo Station (a place where you get gifts or doll from a stupid machine) and guess what, I got a grocery bag!
Sometimes I wonder, I am so bad in maths but I can always imagine and aim quite perfectly about angles and direction. So I got that bag! Third thing to be grateful about was, I accidentally entered the wrong parking space after I paid for my parking which it costed me extra RM9 although I entered and exited within 1 min. I asked that fella but he insisted me to pay it or else the gate would not be opened. So I did, and I think the Universe was sending good vibes because he returned me the money and said it was okay but be alert next time. So I saved another meal!
Was arranging my schedule for the new semester, I did mistake; I thought I needed to take 7 subjects for the last semester therefore I could focus more on conducting and work. In fact I WAS SO WRONG! I need to take 9 subjects. For Goddamn sake!!
And I have accepted the offer from another centre which means I will be packed with practicing, studies, work, conducting and flute.
It is the last week of sembreak, enjoying life. Enjoying the slow pace lifestyle because when new semester starts, I will die. And I was thinking, do all the things I am doing and I will be doing worth for me to work so hard for? My answer is YES. Because I am working for my future.
Recently I have been receiving and digesting internally from different people opinions and I realised I am actually starting to build up my own thinking and ways. I try to be open to accept different opinions and stand more firmly on my own values. And I love myself even more even though there are dayssssss I miss you, think of you. I told myself, it is okay to think of you and being sucked. But I still have to do what I am suppoed to do in a day. Also, earning money is much more fun than missing you. Working and gaining experience and learning are much more interesting than being a dead fish doing nothing but missing you.
I do not need to hesitate much or think twice before I buy something because whatever I am buying, I buy for myself. I pamper myself with money, love from people around me.
I used to look up on others / envy them because I always see the best image of them or the side they want to portray. However, I often receive messages like: I need to learn from you, You're so good! I love you so much, You will def succed in the future because I look up on you, etc.
Never thought that I could be someone else's model or someone to look upon to learn from.
