24 / 9 / 2015

Seriously guys, I think you should know why I keep using English to update ma blog.
First of all, my font goes odd when I use chinese.
Secondly, I start to get used by using english.
Today is my mom's birthday and I don't have tuition class. So today is considered as a lucky day for all of us, right?
After watching the movies, my target seems clearer and I'm motivated to go for it.
Ever felt miserable in your life? That sounds gross right?
Still 30+ days to go. During this period, do you work hard so that you can perform well in your exams? Have you sat down and discussed with your parents about what do you wannabe in the future?
' Future ' is like too far for us to talk about right now. But who knows, we merely left a few months.
No matter what do you wannabe tomorrow, please. Be who you wannabe and be kind-hearted.
The world needs us. I beg all of you, please don't do something that possibly hurt anyone.
We are going to apart. Maybe for some of us, it will be the last time to see each other, joking with each other.
I love y'all. Do not forget you had a bunch of friends in your secondary school life. I'm sure it will be the most memorable memories for all of us.
Sorry for always updating such negative posts, but whenever I thought we are going to the real world later, I feel sad. It is not about we are going to leave each other, I'm just afraid we don't have any chance like now anymore and our secondary school life was just like ' BOOM ' and gone.
We only live once. Thank you for being crazy, lovable, kind, naive, passionate and hard-working.

#TO: MYSELF

ANYWAY, I LOVE MA MOM, MA FAMILY AND MA FRIENDS.

24 / 9 / 2015

前幾天看完了 長大。
結局真的不是我想要的 這件事害我糾結了好多天而且還認真想了想可能發生或者應該這麼演的結局 你說我是不是入戲太深了呢。
可是我倒是看出了一件事 就是呢。如果一個人足夠喜歡你 他是不會讓你走的
你真的不需要故意的為他想千百個理由他為何不找你呀 還是一直等待著。
原因只有一個  HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU

17 / 9 / 2015

I got bad grades for my trial. I feel down, like a whole world has abandoned me. I am left behind.
Of course there's comparison between friends and I, myself. I feel lost in the forest of knowledge.
You guys want to help me to reach the goal, yes I know.
I try to put a lot of efforts on it but I know I'm still missing something. I need guidance.
My mom, teachers, friends, and I expect for a good grades. I know I can't simply fall down like a coward.
I need to stand up and complete my task-study for 13 years, I have to.
But everyday I look at my marks, I feel smaller and smaller. I don't even dare to ask other's marks.
I just want to express my feelings. I know it is worthless if you keep grumble and do nothing.
#SPM GOOD LUCK

9 / 9 / 2015

Have you ever noticed things or people around you?
Would you stop all the things you're doing and started to observe ants on the wall?
Fuck, I feel boring anyway.
Good morning everyone, yesterday was the last day of exams. I feel like I have released my soul to the freedom of the sky.
Ahh, the weather today is super good, birds fly in the wide-spread blue sky, warm shining sunlight, sound of raindrops and gentle cool winds are so comfort and it's a perfect time to stay on your bed, roll over your blanket and sleep like a pig.
But I have chosen a better way to enjoy this lovely morning! I want to share my happiness with all of you. haha
Seems like I have nothing to write but I still have a very strong urge to update my blog.
After all, I'm going to enjoy a movie. woohoo. So match with this kind of weather.
You guys must be jealous on me. IKR. hahaha
Don't worry, you still can read my blog.
For this meaningless post, I would like to beg for you pardon. You guys are still awesome!
Have a nice day and goodbye!

PS : I can feel it through your empty eyes and I can hear all the screaming thoughts in that chaotic mind of yours. One day you will realize that this moment and the ones before and after, will shape you into who you are and will be. Feelings are not permanent. Life is temporary. But you, you can take it and make it worthwhile. — Ming D. Liu
Such a beautiful sentence yea. #ENJOYYOURLIFEWHENYOURESTILLYOUNG

7 / 9 / 2015

When I was attending my sis's wedding dinner, it made me so touched.

So many memories was like water gushing into my thoughts. I did really think about you.

How much did I wish that you were sitting beside me. But no more sadness or whatever feelings tho.

I smiled when I think of you, it's a smile which I know you're not into me but I feel so fortunate that you have came into my heart.

You must have lost your direction or else how could you been walking for so long and still couldn't find a way to come out from my heart?

But I know you can do it. I can let you go whenever you want. So, I'm waiting.

Waiting for you to walk out from my heart so that I can move on.

Hey, I'm still missing you sometimes. Do you know that? 

But there is a good news for us, which is I'm trying to let you go and I think I'm on my way to make it possible.

You must feel relieve right? So do I. Anyhow, I know you're having your trials and I wish you all the best. 

Lastly, I want to tell you a secret: you're the best person that I have ever met in my life.

4 / 9 / 2015

Hi, I'm going out but I steal a little bit of time to update ma blog.
I would like to say is, I have a bad attitude.
Since I feel not confident to myself, sometimes, I will let people down as what my friends do to me.
It's bad. IKR. But it's like a trend. When people around you doing the same thing, usually you'll do it as you think nothing's wrong.
I have a friend, not too close but seems okay. She lets me down for almost 3-4 years.
What does it mean letting me down?
Yea, she doesn't say any words somehow related, but I can feel that feelings though. I feel low self-esteem and don't even dare to meet her gaze whenever the problems closed to the subjects I'm not sure abt. ( mostly subjects I can't perform well. haha )
It's like something sharp pricking in your heart. For years, I still can't get used to it. Being look down by someone is acceptable but when the person is your friends, it's quite hurt for me.
So I keep telling myself, all is good. Everyone has its good and bad. Do not judge someone by your opinion and measurement.
Yea, I feel so fortunate to have you'all staying beside me. I know some of you will stand by me ( maybe? ).
Whatever it is, thank you for training me and helping me to become a stronger person. I'm blessed to know you and it's my pleasure to know you.
It lefts 2 more days for trial and we are allowed to enjoy our last one-week holiday although the real exam is coming. Anyhow, enjoy life and it's so good to be young!

#There is no need to compare yourself with others. You are too good with the way you are.
#Have a nice day yea