Stressful weeks

It has been hectic weeks for me and the stress is getting more and more.
All the due dates are in the same week give me no chill time at all.
Partly I am enjoying the busyness, but my mentally cannot cope with it. Having high expectation of myself makes me almost suffocate, at the cliff of a big breakdown.
The stress is making me emotionally unstable which I am not purposely hurt people around me, but I regret most of the time after raising my voice.
There is no way for me to release my stress at all and it is making me even more stressful.
I feel useless and shameful most of the time because things i plan do not go the way I wanted it to be.
And CHICKEN! still wants me to massage after I am so tired tired tired. Shouldn't you come and help me massage?

Having some issues with a very closed friend of mine, at least i treat him as my real friend.
But seems like he is not, trying to keep distance from me after I had a little breakdown with him.
And that's not what we call friend right? I thought a real friend is someone beside you when you need them the most?
But I am not interested with what he is thinking. It's okay to let people exit from my life, people come and go.
When the timing is right, everything seems perfectly fine. But although sometimes it's not, I'm still okay with it.
I know there are a lot of people love as well.
To be frank, it hurts me a little bit when seeing people leave without a proper goodbye.
Anyhow, focus on myself, that's the important thing I should do.

See, I am overthinking again. But that's me isn't it?