It's my Birthday Month! Such an energetic month to be.
February was a Resting, Realisation and Healing month for me; spending time alone, realign myself as usual.
It started with Chinese New Year, thought having a good break from all the hectic schedule and TA-DA! Here came with Covid + and forced to get rest for 2 weeks.
When almost recovered, it was already mid of February and the most romantic season: Valentine's Day.
Out of nowhere I received a bouquet of roses from anonymous (which I have already found out who was that). Touched but no Thank you.
Then I resumed the work, replaced lessons after lessons. Started to pick-up my mood and mind to be back working on my goals (which took me quite awhile as I was so comfortable of doing nothing).
And emotionally (of thinking stupid things) hit me hard again for few days; where I was so misaligned with myself and got so jumpy. But based on all the past experiences, I continue to read, calming myself.
After that, there were people started to approach me with their shit, and I was the listener. Which wasn't such a bad thing, because it helped me to solve some of my stupid issues by listening to their shitty shit. Fair enough.
End of February, had 1 conducting and 2 flute lessons and 2 violin lessons (thank God I am still making small progresses after a one-month break).
Started to be more focused on the goals and vision. I re-align myself, and I know the ups and downs are so normal; not gonna be judgemental on all the thoughts.
Before I ended my February, I managed to talk to my Guru, and he reminded me to be Nobody, all the attitude and pattern is all about Ego. Being nobody, Love Life and Life will love you back.
Appreciate the gentle breeze, who builds the ant empire, what makes your heart beating, look at the birds flying in the sky, the trees, etc.
Hello March, long awaited month. It will definitely be a month which full of love.
Who doesn't like flowers? But I can buy it myself. I can treat myself food which makes me happy, I buy me cloths, skincare products. I bring myself for shopping, workout and all the places I wanna go. I heal myself when I'm emotionally down, I take care of myself when period cramp is a thing. I get myself home even when I am drunk af.
Dear Man, I don't need someone who knows only talk shit but never proves with action. A bouquet of flower, few simple meals, Good-morning text are just nothing to me. At All.
Be your own Sun, so you can be the Light
March will be a month which full of love because I know it will.
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