A Confession

Hahaha I'm preparing biology and suddenly turn out in front of my computer.
NOOO I CAN'T CONCENTRATE ON THINGS TOO LONG. It's too hard for me TT
I have to keep moving and walking around so that I feel tired and go to sleep hahahaha instead of study.
I'm the one who always keep confusing myself. There's no need to worry about, if you can, you can. If you can't, then there should be no reason for worrying something anymore, right?
So, if you are worrying about your exams, relax bro! Do it as usual and enjoy it, maybe like... sleeping during exams? hahahaha
If you have the problem same with me-so hard to focus something too long, then you'll understand why I always sleep whatever and whenever. CHILL lah.

I have something to tell my friends. I DON'T THINK it is a best time to discuss abt it plus I'm getting tired to talk again and again.
Anyway. I think you can guess it or think abt it yourself?
For the chit-chat last night, I'm very sorry for not considering abt your feelings. But the feelings in Langkawi was worse than yours maybe hundreds or thousands times.
Something must be playing in your thoughts, ' Why are you keep talking this topic all the times? Don't you feel annoy? '
Yea, I know. Even I'm controlling myself not to mention it, but honestly, I won't forget those feelings. It's my prob, same like you. It's our problems when we feel uncomfortable to someone.
Please don't feel sorry for me. I'll consider for ten times whether should I or not to hang out with you ( long journey ) next time. I'm very sorry abt it because I can't bear the disapointment for watching you with your boyfie and I was alone in Langkawi. No handphone to cover my uneasiness, no one to talk to. Watching you guys walked in pairs and I was like ... ' you're asking me out and now I'm enjoying with myself? WTF is this? '
Okay, this is my opinion, maybe next time, if you're going to spend your time with your boyfie, just don't call me out. THAT'S ALL.
I don't like to see couples since I came back from Langkawi. You guys would never understand how was my feelings at that time.
I was blaming myself so much for promise you guys I'm coming with you but doing nothing. I used to cover my real feelings by doing all the stupid things. IKR, you won't realize it.
What I was thinking and expecting before going to LANGKAWI was we were going to chit-chat in the night, drinking maybe beers and I had so many things about John to tell you that time and I was so heart broken. I still can remember that bitch face that I was showing up throughout the trip ( hoping he'll reply me when he was free). And someone keep putting me down, saying a lot of no good words to me.
All of my expectations were just my expectation. You guys walked with boyfie, leaving me with CSC, sitting on the beach which I was planning all of us should be enjoying our girls talk after comfortable showers.
CHILL LAH. It's over and doesn't matter anymore. Just don't think I'm a weird-thinking person, that's enough. HAHA
Just wanna let you know, having a group of friends do not mean all of us have the same opinions and thoughts. So, friends are like matching-pairs-game. If you like his/her character, don't lose the chance to become good friends! If you are not, MAY THE GOD BLESS YOU.
Again, sorry for neglecting your feelings. IKR. But have you guys ever thinking what was my feelings that time?