DAY 32

Wow, it has been one month I'm here.
No worries, I'm doing good over here. And I loveeee the course so much.
Am very excited for the coming of chicken and I can't wait to do a lot of things and explore KL with him.
Last week my lecturer told us, LIFE ISN'T EASY AT ALL. You think those PHD can graduate so easily meh? If you are not going to work harder and harder, in the end you'll just be eliminated or kicked out from this competitive society.
And I felt so guilty for wasting most of my time doing nothing. One of my pandai things is, I'm quite good in pretending I'm hardworking, which is not.
And I know if I keep pretending doing many things but not, eventually my life is a nothing.
Not to mention my dreams, my goals and my integrity.
I'm not good at all, but I'm willing to learn. I learn and practise everyday, allowing myself to be lazy at some time but I will keep motivating myself because if I'm not gonna push myself, no one else.
I read a quote yesterday: Don't act like you're working hard, because the result will show everything.
And it is damn 7 true.
I don't take part in any activities yet, and most of the time I have my meals alone. And this gives me so much of space to think what I'm gonna do next. Self heal is the most powerful.
I live at my own pace, my own world, doing things I love, which is everyday I'm surrounded by music. Seeing all my course mates they are working hard too prevents me from being lazy too.

Not sure chicken is still reading my blog or not. Take good care of your body and I love you.