16/5/2019

First year second semester is gonna end soon. Am quite rushing with all the final assignments.
So does finding room to move out.
I am gonna finish my first year here and left two more years. Still having passion with conducting although I know it's a real hard journey ahead me. Struggling and afraid, but I bring my passion and hope together with me, believe in myself that I am capable to do and achieve what I want.
Aim higher and higher, at least you will not drop on the ground if you miss your goal.
Trying to be better person, trying to surround myself with good-inner-value person, learning all the mistakes from others to remind myself not to do this anymore, accept others' flaws who I think is worthy.
Knowing I have plenty of plans and missions ahead me and I will not get lost one day. Follow your heart and your mind, be grateful of doing everything you're doing.
If you can't get the joy of doing it, at least you have to learn something from it.
Negativity is one of the important ingredients in your life in order to make everything correct.
Without anger, hatred and disappointments, you will not know how good you're doing right now.
It's okay to feel down and break down sometimes, it's okay to burst into tears. That's perfectly fine. But you have to be clear of what you're doing right now. Bear in mind all the disappointments that make you now and be stronger when you stand up.
I can't bear or make your burden lesser but hoping my words can make you feel better when you need some inspirations.

Am analysing myself why do I feel offended or even angry when someone makes bad comments about me. And found out because deeply I feel the same. That's why.
When someone talks bad about you and make you feel down, the reason you feel sad is because what your mind is thinking is exactly the same. You feel embarrassed.
So, accept who you are and all your flaws. Keep working on it. That's why you are here at this stage of your life, not doing anything else but staying here working on things that you're not really good at. It's okay dear, we learn, we try, get comment and we keep working on it until we are good enough.

I hope I can give you some inspiration of loving and believing on yourself more because you worth it.
You deserve a good life in the future because of what you're trying so hard right now.
You deserve someone to love you not because of your look but your inner values that bring so much of positive energy to people around you.
Be a warm and kind person when the world is not.
You deserve my love and trust on you.
Keep learning and never give up. xoxo