27/11/2020

 It's Flyday! Finally, I've survived till the weekend. I was craving alcohol these few days and I only allow myself to drink during weekends.

I asked my housemate to join me but she said I'm gonna drive tomorrow so if I drink too much will be too dangerous. Anyhow, without her knowledge, I secretly got myself a BIG can of beer. hehe

The weather tonight is superb. It is windy now, sitting on the sofa, with Harry Potter music, the chill wind and a BIG can of beer. What a life.

I had my conducting lesson with Mr Lee today, and I asked whether how far I am in order to achieve my goal, and he said what he is preparing me right now is the master program, and he suggested me to go East Europe for conducting, more opportunity, cheaper. And I am really looking forward to my future.

I love having deep conversations with people, it makes me feel connected. Or else, I prefer to be alone. My mind is full of fantasies and imagination. I love it when my mind is telling me stories. I can spend the whole afternoon, staring at the ceiling and just let my mind race like hell. Untell stories and feelings are too overwhelm and I also need to separate into a few characters and talk to myself, not to mention especially when I am with good music.

After the breakup, I realize life is too short to care about shits. 

Sitting here with good music, good beer, and a nice environment. 100%.

I was talking to Eva that my emotions are so unpredictable every day, I feel touched when I get to know good music and this happens literally every day. And she was like why you're so rich in emotions. And I love being ME! Good night.