Sensitive = Passion?

 I do admit I am such a sensitive person. Any slight changes in the mood, tone, facial expression, you name it; I can sense it.

I always receive comments like: Why are you so sensitive? // You're overreacting. // You shouldn't be having so many emotions. 

And I always hate myself for being so sensitive or you may call it as emotional. Society uses the term 'Emotional' as a negative word. Being emotional is not good, you should have flat emotions, not so many ups and downs.

I tried to change myself, numb my senses. But I can't. This makes me depressed. I always show my feelings through my expressions. People say I can be read easily, which is not good. I understand, but just a few minutes ago, I went through an IG story post from Maggy, she was reading the book: The Gifts of Imperfections by Brene Brown, the quote caught my attention: 

We cannot selectively numb emotions. When we numb the painful emotions, we also numb the positive emotions. 

You know what, this quote is so beautifully written. I always hate my gift, for being a sensitive person. But at the same time, I am a person who is so rich in different emotions! And that's who I am, innit?

I can feel what people can't, I can describe and I enjoy all the emotions I have. Isn't it so amazing?

I am passionate about what ahead of me, and I am so passionate about my life, I can't wait to reach the next stage of my life and at the same time, I am enjoying my life right now. 

I am so blessed to be given this wonderful superpower, being extra caring about others' feelings and if I use it wisely, I can make more friends, I can share, and be a wonderful listener.

I am so into self-love recently, I love myself, still accepting who I am. But, I am genuinely happy. I have the freedom to wake up at any time, choose what to eat, choose what to wear, my family and friends love me and so do I, I am still learning, still playing the violin and my conducting. What else I can complain about in my life?

Dear Me, 

I've let you suffered for some time, I'm sorry, and I promise I won't in the future. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. I love you, myself.