8 / 1 / 2015

( FEEL EXCITED )

For what? NOTHING.

As I said in the previous post, I really need some medium to release my negative feelings.

These days I was suffered from stress. 

Reading can't really help you to release your stress, it just helps to calm your mind and if you didn't read it, that fucking feelings are coming back to haunt you.

I can't really cry or shout it loud because I don't want to get my mom attention and let her worries about me. ( good girl )

But there is one fact about reading is

BOOK IS ADDICTIVE

You can't stop reading after you open the first page. There's something is convincing you like: HEY JUST READ ME. I'M GOOD FOR READING. DON'T SLEEP! IT'S JUST A FEW PAGES AND YOU'RE GOING TO FINISH THE WHOLE CHAPTER. HEY, DON'T SLEEP, THERE ARE ONLY A FEW CHAPTERS AND YOU'RE GOING TO FINISH THE BOOK!

Fuck the book. But I love that kind of feeling. Kind of satisfied. 

I don't really love reading, depends on the book. LOL

Okay, just assume that I love reading. 

I don't really like to discuss about friendship because I know that even if I do, nobody cares about it. ( Annabeth : hey Polyphemus, I'm nobody!    Well, inside joke. )

Your ignorance make me feel like is it fair to me?

I care it, hold it, protect it as hell and whenever I wanted to discuss it and everybody gives me a I-DON'T-CARE LOOK.

WELL, WELL.

Rather than complaining a lot. I choose to be a normal, happy and insane girl.

Because I know that no one loves to hear you complaining a lot.

Trying not to care so much, love so much and tell yourself

WHO THE FUCKING ONE I SUPPOSE TO CARE ABOUT?

VELENNA TEOH